Blessings Working A Program
The last four months have been a wild ride. There have been a lot of stress and obstacles I’ve had to face. And I never thought I would get to where I am today. I’m grateful for this way of life and for all the blessings that come with working a program. When I gave my will over to my higher power and surrendered, I allowed the guidance to help me become the person that I am today.
I No Longer Believe Those Who Do Not Believe In Me
I have endured a lot of pain throughout the last four months but have overcame it and been able to deal with it better. The biggest thing I’ve had to deal with is the situation with my son’s father and not being able to see my child. He has kept me from my child for weeks and months at of time. He has put me down in so many ways and bashed me in so many ways but I have learned how to deal with him. Rather than lashing out at him I realize what he says now is not the person that I am. Believing what he says is no longer a thing for me. I know that I am a great mother and that I would do anything for my child.
My Son Is My Favorite Blessing
The last couple weeks he has let me see my son more. Although he doesn’t want to admit it I think he knows deep down that I am trying to do better. And he wants what I want for our son and that is to have both his mother and father. It is a blessing to be able to have my child at Da Vinci and be clean and be able to spend quality time with him. From playing hide-and-seek to Jumping on the bed, to playing ball out in the yard, I get to enjoy these times with him clean.
Recognition At Work Is A Blessing That Motivates Me
I was also promoted to shift supervisor at work. I put my all, plus more into my job and things have started to turn over tenfold. All my progress is showing and miracles are slowly happening in my life. I used to think that I didn’t deserve all these things that are happening but now I believe that I do deserve them and that everything that is happening is due to me turning my will over and surrendering to the program of Narcotics Anonymous.
Support And Friendship Reminds Me That Pain Ends
I have a great support group and friends I can reach out to. I have people that tell me they’re proud of me. But most importantly I am proud of myself today and know that I deserve each and every blessing that is coming my way. I deserve this new way of life and as long as I continue to work the program and remember where I came from, my life will get better and great things will continue to happen. They say hope stands for Hold On Pain Ends. Well I held on and I will continue to hold on. The pain in my heart isn’t unbearable today. It has been replaced with love serenity and Hope. I am an addict. I have been clean for a little over four months now.
In loving service-Lauren