“Create” Defined My First Year
We enter recovery to change, grow and create a new healthy self. During my journey in recovery I acquired a new tool, bullet journals. I am now on year three of my bullet journals. When I start a new bullet journal, I like to start the journal with a word that will define my year. The first year I started the word was “create”. And create was what I did. My first creation was starting my own business. I created a transitional home for women recovering from addiction. This in turn created a new me. I gave my skills to my fellowship, and I expanded on that and learned how to express myself in video and photography.
“Patience” Defined My Second Year
My Year To “Grow”
Hindsight
My Farm Analogy
Grow vs. Relinquish
Deeper Connections
Surrender To Win
- My romantic relationship was going nowhere, fast. I quickly accepting that the priority this relationship had was not in alignment with what it deserved. He wanted me to make it a priority but he didn’t want any commitment other than to have fun together. Fair enough we are both approaching our 50’s, keeping it light was alright with me, but then I have a business as well as friends, children and my own recovery, the “lighter side” relationship, was indeed last in my priorities. Resentment was building from the he time he consumed. Resentful of a relationship that would not go deeper. And those frustrations were distractions from my goals to grow. The decision was made to surrender and relinquish that relationship. Relief was received as an instant reward from the universe.
- The Men”s House was something I still wanted. And, I will open a men’s house but for now the universe had other ideas. Through Da Vinci Home I hosted a grand opening event with a firewalk! I made plans with a local apartment complex to rent a very large apartment. Patiently I waited while they made upgrades on the units. The day I was to sign the lease, I was informed that the complex was going through some legal issues and I could no longer rent from them. So began the whole process of finding the right location again. Once again I surrendered and relinquished that plan for now.
- The idea that I could do everything all by myself had to be relinquished. I was attempting to run my own online magazine, with all the content and media it required. Yes it is this blog site you are reading now. From the very first day, I knew Da Vinci was going to open, I knew that I would not waste a precious moment of all the experience I would gain. As well as somehow share all the experience the women who came through Da Vinci had to share. Helping women get recovery was my first priority, because every addict saved is another addict to spread the message. My second priority was always to spread the message of recovery using digital media. This positive world of recovery is so rarely shared. We hear so much in the news of what addicts do wrong, but not of the incredible justice served to a community that encourages strong recovery. But I couldn’t any longer do it alone. Combined with mentoring the women of Da Vinci and trying to keep up with all the new content, I was not getting anywhere alone. I needed help.
- This one is the most important of all four. I had to surrender that a relationship that I had with my very first client had grown beyond professional. She had become my dear friend. No, she also wasn’t the most model client. But Lissi and I connected. And a friendship with the rarest of bonds was formed.