A Long Time Not Caring
I’ve spent a long time not caring and now I’m trying to “find myself”. This is my second blog since I’ve been here and many changes have taken place. Some people have come and gone, some people have relapsed and have gone back to detox. The house is full of so many different personalities.
Rebuilding Takes Time
I’m working a part time job at Dollar Tree which I enjoy, but don’t really want to be at long term. I’m still looking for my ideal job, something that I can stay at long term. Realistically I don’t think that will happen for a while. Only because I don’t feel like my mind is right yet. After using drugs and alcohol for such a long time it will take some time for me to feel “normal” again. I seem to forget things very often and I have trouble remembering.
Amazing Support
Angie at Da Vinci Home has been really amazing. She’s been dealing with so much, in and outside of the house. I haven’t been able to stay current with rent, but she’s been so patient with me. I pay what I can when I get paid. And hopefully I will be working another job soon, so that I can get caught up with my back rent. Through this all, I know that she’s always here for me. This support is something I haven’t had in such a long time.
Searching For Job Stability
Having a stable job I think rarely happens right away when you first get clean and sober. I’ve gone through two jobs already, and now on my third job. Which means there are some gaps where I was out of work completely until I found something else.
Starting Step Work In Recovery
I did finally get a sponsor after about 6 weeks being here. She’s a wonderful woman and has been giving me assignments periodically. I’ve done some writing and have been reading over the steps thoroughly. Starting to write about the steps has been a scary thought to me. As I read them, I get a lot of memories and thoughts in my head. Memories I haven’t thought about in a long time. Some that I don’t want to remember let alone write about. I know it’s obviously in my best interest to start. I will let you know how the process goes in my next blog! That’s all for now.
Sincerely,
Just Me, Myself, & I Jen