Life In Recovery And Reunification
My life in recovery today provided me an opportunity to visit my family. Today is my last day in New Jersey and later on this afternoon I’ll be getting on the plane to go back to Florida. The last few days have been nothing short of amazing. I am so grateful to have these beautiful people in my life. But, don’t get me wrong, it’s not all rainbows and sunshine. Because of my past and all the turmoil I have caused, challenges and trust issues definitely surface.
Offering Peace Of Mind
My family knows I have been doing well and they try their best to understand. But it’s difficult to let the past go, the fear of impending doom. It’s no secret that the thought of “if we leave her alone will half our things go missing?” or “is she really going there or is that the next excuse to go out on a run?” pops into their heads. But it’s my job to stay present and take responsibility, for the past present and future. My family deserves to have a peace of mind.
Happy, Joyous And Free
Through my life in recovery I have found some serenity myself. And if I can be happy, joyous and free then why wouldn’t I want to share that experience with those I love the most? I know that’s something I can’t just wish into existence though. There is definitely work involved, lots of prayer and spiritual principles (cough cough patience). But it is absolutely worth it.
Life Is A Blessing
My relationships have already improved immensely. So, I can only imagine what the future holds. Four months ago my brother wouldn’t even talk to me and this morning I was helping him get ready for work. This may sound minute, but the fact that he’s allowing me back into his life is such a blessing. To say that I treasure that relationship is an understatement.
Grateful For My Relationships Today
I’m so proud of myself for how far I’ve already come. How things are getting so much better. When I get a taste of that up here it makes it hard to leave. I’ve already had a couple of moments having to say bye to my best friend and my brother. But I have to remain grateful that I get to have those relationships today. I have to remember my life in recovery is what allowed me to get to this point.
Life In Recovery Provides Opportunities
It is so important for me to stay grounded in my higher power, in NA and in recovery. That is what has provided me with these opportunities. My life in recovery in Florida has already given me so much freedom and happiness. And, I am not willing to give that up. How lucky am I to have people that I love so much, whether I’m in New Jersey or Florida? As sad as I am to say goodbye, I can’t wait to get back to my Florida family.
~Sammy