Area Service Work
A new commitment in service work began today. I went to my first area meeting and that was an experience. I’m the new Alternate GSR for my home group. Service work keeps me vigilant in my recovery.
Detox Commitment
At the end of this month, on Easter Sunday my sponsor and I are going to detox to share our experience strength and hope. I love doing that because that’s where my journey started. I’m excited to go spread the message and tell my story. However, I have a very real fear of sharing. My disease tells me that I sound stupid and I don’t make any sense, even though I know that’s not true.
Step Work
I go over step 4 work on Tuesday I can’t wait to do that. To get all that off my chest and let it go. Then I can move on and start my step 5 work. It’s not that I am or want to rush through the step work. Rather, it’s the ability to keep growing through my step work. And that’s just really exciting to me.
Live In The Solution
I’m starting to share more in meetings. When I do share I try to share my problem and then my solution. Today I don’t sit in my problems anymore. Instead I look for a solution. That’s what recovery teaches us, to live in the solution. I’m accepting slowly that I’m right where I’m need to be for today and I get involved as much as I can.
Noticeable Changes
Someone came up to me today and expressed how much I’ve changed and how proud of me he was. It made me feel really good because I know how much I’ve changed and the foot work I have put in. But when someone you look up to notices it, well, It fells good.
Clean and Serene
My life today is great! A life I never dreamed of having. My dad and sisters are in my life again, and a mom that loves me will always be there for me. I have the best sponsor ever. A beautiful girlfriend and she’s everything I’ve ever wanted in a woman and relationship. A few close best friends that are always there for me, my support group. And a wonderful puppy who loves me unconditionally. I’m clean & serene and genuinely happy today. Everyday isn’t easy but it’s worth it! I’m worth it and so are you, we all are. It works if you work it. Trust your struggle, The best is yet to come!