Self Sabotage
Self sabotage means to deliberately obstruct or destroy something. And that something has been anything I ever cared about while active in my addiction. Okay, so I don’t know about you, but I often obsess over the negative. Even when life seems to be going PRETTY FREAKING GREAT. I mean really, it’s more like ESPECIALLY when things are going great. So, let the sabotage begin.
Seeking Validation
When I’m feeling insecure I’ll seek validation through anyone, and through anything. And usually 10 times out of 10 I will wind up feeling horrible about these actions and it results in more misery and self hatred. Why is valuing ourselves so hard?! I think it’s because we absolutely do not want to look inside. For so long we avoided what was wrong or lacking inside ourselves by using in active addiction. But really, it’s so easy to rattle off 10 things that you don’t like about yourself, am I rite? Lets change it up though. What’s one thing you love about you? You deserve to love yourself. What thought would be your most thought about thought? Imagine you switched that up and became obsessed with your every little success. Yassss girl – boy – human – alien, you amazing, creative, beautiful, abundant creature. LOVE YO SELF
Sam