I Am An Addict
My name is Becky and I am an addict. I say this because I need a daily reminder that I am not okay, not in control of my life (at the moment anyway). My addiction has been a 10 year battle and everyday is a struggle. It took me a long time to accept the fact that I am an addict. My addiction is something I now have to accept every day, all day, and in the beginning I hated it! However, I am slowly learning, and I say slowly because I have messed up so many times. I could not and would not accept the fact that I was an addict and powerless, my life forever unmanageable, because who wants to really? But when you have lost everything, have nowhere to go, hate yourself and if you want to survive one has to turn their will and life over. Being an addict is not the end of the world. I can survive with this disease and be happy clean working my recovery.