Lost, Confused And Unsure

I feel a little lost and like I don’t really know what I need to do.  I need to get a sponsor, a big book, a work book, a ‘how it works and why’, and a home group.  In comparison with the other girls I have not been in recovery very long, so I guess this is to be expected since .

I am feeling better with every day and today I had a nice day with my parents.  I guess doing the ‘next right thing’ does work.  It’s amazing that the last time I felt like I was in the right place was when I was in jail.  That’s where I started to feel better.  I think that was because I knew where I would be sleeping, eating, and working.  The same thing with being here, so I am feeling a little less lost.

I’m so happy I finally let go of Mark, he was dragging me down.  I don’t wish any ill will on him and I hope he finds his way.  But I couldn’t help him or myself.  I appreciate all of you girls for helping me.  Even if I got a little lost on the way, I can be a functioning member of society.  I’m getting my personality back little by little.  Day by Day I will get better, and eventually I will be able to give back to those who helped me.  I always thought if I found my way and I could help one person it would be worth it in the long run.

-Jayme