Healing Through Suggestions
I’m Nikki and I’m an addict. Today I have 240 days clean. My sponsor and I just went over my sixth step together. She suggested I do a relationship step 4 again. Which I’m glad she did because I learned a lot, and now that I’m aware I don’t have to make those mistakes again and instead learn from it.
I realized that I started dating this girl, acting out on character defects, because I wasn’t over my ex. My ex broke my heart so it was a way to get back at her. In the long run I hurt myself, the girl I was with and my ex. I didn’t mean to hurt anyone but I did by acting out.
There’s something missing inside me and I fill this void with women. This stems back to my mother and how she abandoned me. I still haven’t forgiven her for what she did to me. So I keep praying about it and hopefully my higher power will remove that from me, since I can’t do it myself, and I can grow from this whole experience.
Working The Fifth Tradition
This past Saturday I had a sponsor family get together. That was awesome. It was at my grand sponsors house. I’m so blessed to have such an amazing group of women by my side through this journey. We went over the fifth tradition. Every time we get together we go over a tradition and answer questions together. So, I’m working my steps and my traditions. I’ve wanted to work the traditions, so its awesome I’m working them with my sponsor family. That’s where I’m at right now in my recovery. Everyday I get better. Trust your Struggle; The best is yet to come.