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Together We Can

Healing Through Suggestions

I’m Nikki and I’m an addict. Today I have 240 days clean. My sponsor and I just went over my sixth step together. She suggested I do a relationship step 4 again. Which I’m glad she did because I learned a lot, and now that I’m aware I don’t have to make those mistakes again and instead learn from it.

Broken Heart

I realized that I started dating this girl, acting out on character defects, because I wasn’t over my ex. My ex broke my heart so it was a way to get back at her. In the long run I hurt myself, the girl I was with and my ex. I didn’t mean to hurt anyone but I did by acting out.

Abandonment Hurts

There’s something missing inside me and I fill this void with women. This stems back to my mother and how she abandoned me. I still haven’t forgiven her for what she did to me. So I keep praying about it and hopefully my higher power will remove that from me, since I can’t do it myself, and I can grow from this whole experience.

Working The Fifth Tradition

This past Saturday I had a sponsor family get together. That was awesome. It was at my grand sponsors house. I’m so blessed to have such an amazing group of women by my side through this journey. We went over the fifth tradition. Every time we get together we go over a tradition and answer questions together. So, I’m working my steps and my traditions. I’ve wanted to work the traditions, so its awesome I’m working them with my sponsor family. That’s where I’m at right now in my recovery. Everyday I get better. Trust your Struggle; The best is yet to come.

A grateful recovering addict, Nikki

More and More

My name is Lauren and I am an addict. I have been clean just about eleven months. For me, Recovery is number one In my life right now because whatever I put before it I will lose. I know I speak a lot on gratitude but everyday that passes there’s more and more to be grateful for.

A Young Man In The Making

I’m grateful for my relationship with my son today. I am able to be a real mom and spend time with him, teach him things and raise him to be a well mannered young man. Right now he’s having some health issues and we have had to go back and forth to the doctors, and I’m able to be there for him at the doctors.

Beautiful Relationships

I’m grateful for my support group and my sponsor. I have never felt closer with a group of females in my life. If I need someone to talk to, my sponsor Is always there. And if I can’t reach her, I have a network of woman that actually care and take time out of there day to talk to me. I cannot explain the amount of gratitude I hold for such beautiful relationships.

Road to Success

I’m also grateful that I have a job. Seems like now a days it’s hard for some to find a job, and I have been at my job for almost three years now. Sometimes it’s hard for me to appreciate my job because all of the stress. But I have to look for the positive in everything, and the fact that I even have a job. There are so many reasons to be grateful and I would not trade my life for anything. My gratitude just keeps going.

Grateful recovering addict, Lauren

Family Vacation

I’m Nikki I’m an addict. Today I have 533 days clean. I’m on a family vacation in Georgia. It’s been 6 years since I’ve been up here. The last time I was up here I was in bad shape. It’s nice to be around all my family clean. This is the first time me ,my sister and my brother are all clean and together up here. We’re all actually spending quality time together instead of who can get fucked up the fastest.

Appreciate The Small Stuff

Today we went hiking together and went to go see some waterfalls. Going hiking made me realize how out of shape I was in. I was dying going up those hills. Being in such a small town makes me have a lot of gratitude for my hometown Pasco. I thought Pasco was small, but this town doesn’t even have a Walmart. There is no mall, restaurants, or even a movie theater. There is just one fast food place McDonald’s. You have to drive 45 mins to Dothan, Alabama to go into a big city. I tried looking up an NA meeting the closest one is in Alabama.

Persevere With Faith

I’m enjoying relaxing this weekend. It’s a nice get away because the past month has been a little chaotic, with my dad in and out of the hospital, work, relationships, school, and my car problems. But, recovery has given me the tools on how to deal with things when life shows up. Today I’m able to persevere through things with faith, acceptance, courage and support from the people in the fellowship. I have so much gratitude for the people in my life today, my life and my family. I’m missing my Halo, and I can’t wait to get home to him.

A grateful recovering addict, Nikki

Celebration

Today is an amazing day for me. I’m 30 days clean! I didn’t think that after having almost 7 months clean and then relapsing that my first 30 days would excite me so much, but it really has! I’ve come to learn that every single day clean is such a blessing! I’m really on an amazing journey today in recovery.

No Longer In The Woods

I’ve been thinking a lot about my past, my present, and my future lately. When people say that the gifts of recovery are amazing, they’re not lying. How freaking blessed am I as an addict to be able to call a transitional living home for women, have no money, have to pick up my belongings at my camp in the woods, and be picked up by another recovering addict and have a roof over my head that night, a bed to sleep in, and food in my stomach! Thinking back on it now I’m like, wow that’s really crazy… but true!

I Am Deserving

I actually have a home now, and a family. Surrounded by awesome friends! My boyfriend is wonderful and treats me like a queen. I have a great job, or should I actually say a great career now! I think to myself what had this addict done to deserve everything I have in my life today? It’s truly a blessing and a miracle, and it’s called the gifts of recovery! Everything I have I owe to all of the incredible girls in my home and to my fellowship in Narcotics Anonymous. I could never have done this without you all!

A Beautiful Soul

Although, there is one person who deserves all the gratitude in the world from me,and that’s Angie here at Da Vinci! Angie believed in me at my lowest point in my life when I didn’t even believe in myself. She took me in and assured me I would be OK… and I’m OK! I love her so very much for all she has done for me and being my friend!

Miracles Overflow

Gratitude is a huge part of my story, and I’m filled with it today! I’m still learning just exactly who Jen is, but I do know she’s a grateful person! Narcotics Anonymous has changed my life in so many ways. The gifts of recovery are possible today… So once you surrender to a new way of life, be prepared for the blessings and the miracles to overflow!

This Greatful Addict Me, Myself, & Jen

Life Goes On

So things in my life have been going well, for the most part. I have my ups and downs, and my highs and my lows, but overall going well. Since my relapse, I have been going to meetings much more frequently and working on step work and a gratitude list. I’ve been doing pretty well with calling my new sponsor. I’m still not picking up the phone on a daily basis to call her, but getting better at it. I feel very comfortable talking to her about things when I need to.

Love and Support

The environment at the house has been great lately. Most of the girls from when I first got to Da Vinci are still there which is amazing! We’ve become like family. They are all just like a sister to me, including Angie. I know that I’m right where I need to be, and where I actually want to be right now. It’s a really good feeling to know that someone is usually always home to talk to if you need an ear to listen, however on the same note someone is always there to call you out on your bullshit too if need be. I’m learning to try to be patient and just allow things happen the way that they do.

My Journey Continues

I’ve been so blessed in every single step of my journey. I’m a little under a month clean now and my life has changed so much since I’ve been in recovery. It’s so true that the gifts of recovery are amazing because I’m living proof of that today. There will always be some bumps in the road, so I just get up and dust myself off, and I know I will be OK.

Just Me, Myself, & I…..Jenn